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woo
02 October 2014 @ 10:49 pm
Mason and I have officially decided that we will start baby stuff next August. :). In the mean time, I've been reading a lot of books about babies and about how much I think I'm going to suffer during the entire course of the pregnancy, haha. We've kicked our savings plan into higher gear and it's kind of exciting. We have a bit saved up already, but I look forward to being even more of a grown up.

I hope more than anything that my parents will be able to spend as much time as they can with our baby (or babies, but at most, two of them). We wanted to wait a bit later, but agree that given my dad's age and health concerns, delaying motherhood by another 1-2 years is 1-2 fewer years the baby will get to spend listening to my parents' stories. I am willing to give up most things in exchange for my parents' time spent with their grandchildren...I have the rest of my older life to do whatever else.

Life isn't perfect, but it's pretty good, and I'm really lucky. We make the best out of what we have, and support others on their own quests to do the same for themselves. That's really all you can hope for!
 
 
 
 
 
woo
19 July 2014 @ 10:54 pm
Our wedding day was beautiful. It was everything I wanted it to be and more. It was definitely one of the happiest days of my life.  We took so many amazing photos with such talented photographers, but we won't see them until 1-2 weeks after the event.

I'm glad we made the extra effort to get married in my hometown in California. I got to be surrounded by the people who loved me most--the people who raised me and cared for me since the day I was born.  We laughed and danced and sung, all throughout the night. I created so many memories with them, and I wouldn't have had it any other way. After it was all done with, Mason and I had an awesome 8-day, 5-star Vegas food and show honeymoon to look forward to.

Before we left to go to the airport to catch our plane to Vegas, we decided to drive back from dropping people off at SFO to see my family one more time for 30 minutes. Mostly it was to see my grandma. She asked me why I was still there and I said that I wanted to see her one more time before I left. She smiled. We offered her tea and I kissed her on the forehead. I didn't know that that was truly the last time I got to be with her.

One day into our honeymoon, my grandma went into cardiac arrest. We immediately drove 9 hours from Vegas to her hospital bed.  30 family members were there, crying. She was our matriarch, our mama.  She survived the Vietnam war to raise her 6 surviving children and all of her grandchildren.  We all stood in her room as her breath and heartbeat faded. We talked to her as well as we could as she left us all.

It seems cruel that we were born to fall in love with people, only to have to rip ourselves away from those who love us when we die.
 
 
 
woo
29 June 2014 @ 12:27 pm
Less than two weeks. :)

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woo
29 May 2014 @ 12:32 pm
When we were younger, we were told to stay away from "bad people."

When I was younger, those people seemed much easier to avoid. Some people behave in obviously bad ways, and it's easy for me to tell them no.  But I'm finding often, now, that that isn't the case at all.

Others wound you in much more subtle ways, often more severely.  And those are the ones you remember. They trick themselves into your life and leave you wondering why you ever tried. They have forced themselves into your memories, your life, yourself.  And what do you do?

2014 takes the cake.
 
 
 
woo
28 February 2014 @ 12:04 pm
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woo
04 June 2013 @ 08:47 pm

“In the End, we will remember not the words of our enemies, but the silence of our friends.”

Too many people choose to do what's easy.

 
 
 
woo
17 April 2013 @ 11:31 pm
I really love this song.



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It doesn't last that long.  I remember being so carefree as a kid.  I didn't know what I had, and I didn't know what I didn't have.  I knew two emotions: happiness and anticipation.  I had no idea why we were here, and I can't say that I thought about it much.  Everything was bright, and there was a lot of green green grass and dandelions.  We rolled down the hills and sometimes even did cartwheels down the steeper ones.  That almost broke my arm.  There were a lot of jungle gyms; we'd climb so high and so fast that being up at the top first was simply exhilarating.  We'd fold paper boats and float them down little streams for hours.  I remember on the day before vacations that I could never sleep, so Kel and I just stayed up talking about all the fun things we were going to do.  It didn't matter.

We will never feel so carefree again.

Life is such a transient thing.  I often wonder why people chose to live it filled with regrets.  I wonder why people choose to live a life of lies and manipulation.  Our time is so limited here.  We're all just people.  No one is on a pedestal over anyone else.  Everyone has the same struggles, the same fears.  We worry about our friends, our family, our health.  We feel sadness and we feel pain.  We suffer.  We will never stop suffering.  We are just people.

We are complicated, but we are complicated with potential.   "Collaboration is the stuff of growth."  Stop fighting.  It's just not worth your time or your breath.  Take those on who respect this transient life and drop those who insult it.